When the adoption process evolved from a 6.5 year faceless wait to the reality of bringing home a baby (a real baby!), a lot of things ran through my mind. One of those thoughts was how my daily routine was going to change from a 10-year old in school all day to one filled with diapers and naps. Needless to say, it was a little daunting. As I've said before, I went from being the 'young mom' to Nikolas to the 'old mom' to this baby in the blink of an eye. It's funny how kids can affect your perception of age. Well, something happened, and I blinked again.....yep, blinked those tears right out of my eyes as the weeks approaching the start of preschool were upon us. (And, yep, blinking again right now, blink, blink, blink, as I type this). I can't believe that wobbly baby we caught first glimpse of in Wuhan, China, is now 3 and heading off to school. HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?! I'm the first to admit that I'm not the best stay at home mommy of a young child; I don't love the mommy groups or the mornings in the park. But what I do love (and miss), are those PJ mornings cuddling with my little girl and exploring the neighborhood on our walks together (to name only two!). Now, the time has come that I must share her with the rest of the world. That's a difficult concept to accept. It reminds me of when Nikolas started preschool and he came home one day and told me a story about something that had happened in school. I cried. I cried because it was the first time that I wasn't there with him to experience the event that sparked the story. I used to know all of his stories. Now, I was becoming an audience and not an active participant to the events of his day. (blink, blink, blink......) And here it's happening again, sending our little one out into the world to have her own experiences. Yesterday, when I picked her up from school and was strapping her into her carseat, the school bus pulled into the parking lot. Thinking I still had one up on her I said, "Emalie, do you know what the wheels on a school bus do?" I then started singing that song. Do you know what she did? She sang with me and completed all the other verses by herself. SIGH. I guess she did know what those wheels (and kids, and doors....) do afterall-- and I didn't even teach her that. And, this little girl LOVES school. On Friday night as I was tucking her into bed, we were talking about "no school on Saturday, no school on Sunday, school on Monday". Do you know her response?! "That makes me sad. I like school." Tthat she does. When I told her goodbye this morning in her classroom, I said, "Come give me a hug. Aren't you going to give me a hug?" Do you know what she said?! "I already told you goodbye." Sheesh. As my dad always told me, 'the only thing constant is change.' Isn't THAT the truth!!
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Emalie is explaining to bear that she is going to go to school and he gets to stay home with mommy. |
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No Minnie Mouse or Dora for this girl. Now, she has a Spiderman hoodie to finish off the ensemble. You just gotta laugh...... |
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Emalie's very first homework assignment: "All about ME". No dolls or princess dresses for this little girl (spoiler alert: just wait 'til you see what she picked out for Halloween!)! |